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Thursday, December 17, 2009
Trainings, friendlies and all. Kinda busy. 14days left to January. Less than two months to zonals. I don't have much time left. Train, train, train. I don't know how far I'll go by the end of time. By now, how far have I gone? Keep going, keep going. Knock, knock, anyone there? There used to be. Now, I don't see anyone. Everyone's so out of reach. So far that I feel as if I'm living on an island all by myself. I choose to think some people in my life are the closest I have to me, but then when I come to think of it, I don't know you much at all. Now I know different situations reveal alot. Now I know. Say whatever you want. say I'm a bitch/suck up, all the bullshit. Continue to live in your little world of lies and deception. -And you, the sight of you irks me. You don't choose people to get high with. You know how much I feel like screaming in your face or not? You don't choose people, and leave the rest just hanging there. Who do you think you are? But it doesn't matter. To me, You're just a small, pathetic fry trying to be friends with everyone, but you're damn freaking lonely. What right have you got? I hate it you know. I hate it. From the start of the year, from the freaking moment I lost everything to you, i hated it. So what do you want now? Be happy, high high so everyone will like you? And when it comes to people you don't really like or so, you get all sian. What's wrong with you. And I wonder why is all the attention on you? Damn it. And -you all-, I know there'll be people cursing at me right now. But know what? I'll tell you : You haven't seen it all. Oh aye, you know, sometimes I envy A and Z. Because true friends are hard to find. And I don't think I'll ever find mine. You, missed it. No, I missed it, chances slip through. I wish we could talk like how we used to. Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Sometimes a man's mind just needs an injection of positivity. training today was okay, mood was pretty bad at the starting, but it got better. I can't smash as well anymore.. Sigh. After training stayed till 3.15pm in school then went Uncle Sams for lunch with Sermin, Xinying and Ruiqi. Damn hungry urgh. Laughed like whoohoo! Lol, only Xinying knows what I'm saying ha ha ha. Omg this sounds damn sick! Hope I'll play well tmr during friendly against AMK. I can do it (: Monday, December 14, 2009
FUN DAY. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, QIN NAN! :D Today's training was almost all PT, ahhhh. Trying to control my breathing still. Doubles with Xinying and then with Jane was good, I think (: I'm annoyed at someone! Urgh, don't mention it, grr. Thanks Alik for cheering me uppp. Waited for Zeli to bathe and get his books, then Jane Yaying Yongqin Zeli Me and NichLim stayed back at school to play cards. We even ordered Macs for lunch, ha , which only arrived like almost 2hours later -.- Mr Ng opened the Chinese Studies room for us instead and we played donkey and cheat while MrNg DIY-ed the furniture bought by the school for the room. Jane seriously cannot CHEAT. ( I mean it HA HA HA) . Zeli ah, good at playing cheat! Chatted with MrNg over lunch, gosh, I had Macs at least 4times this week, with every meal having Macwings. After so, all of us helped DIY the furniture. Me and Jane assembled two chairs :D Screws and nails, etc. It was fun and there's this good sense of self accomplishment! (: When I grow up, I think it'll be damn romantic and cool to buy a house and live in it with someone you love. And everything in that house could be handpicked and assembled by us two and all the rooms and walls could be handpainted by us with both our favourite colours. Haha, I'm thinking too far ahead. Actually assembling furniture ain't that bad after all. I like figuring out the instruction booklet, and assembling the pieces of wood together and at the end, I see something completed, I feel good (: Though the screws and so on required some strength but I like it, hmm. And as Mr Ng said, actually if I get closer to some people I'll realise that they will really joke around and we can all joke around together, I need not take their words too seriously, its all crapping around. So yeah, maybe I'll soon find that bunch of people easy going and easy to get along with? (: After that, cabbed with MrNg to Vivo to Meet up with Regina, Pris, QinNan(Birthday boy) + etc. Had dinner at Carl's Junior ( another fast food place, urgh :/ ) , after which left Paul, Qin, Chen Yan, Regina, Priscilla and Me. We sat at Vivo's rooftop to chat. The night's breeze was gerat (: Talked about some sensitive stuff, and so on. Confidential stuff. Left Vivo with Priscilla. Reached home and here blogging! :D Sunday, December 13, 2009
hey hey, realise how I'm blogging more frequently now? :D GOH ZELI'S BACK, I'm lag but yes, Buddy's back! (: SO HAPPY. All the sec twos are back :D And yah, I'm having runny nose again, please I hope I won't get sick. Don't let it affect my training tmr please! :/ I think my nose's sensitive enough. AYEEEEE. Saturday, December 12, 2009
(: Hello, hello (: The morning part of training today was a lil' screwed for me, but afternoon session was gooooddd (: I like my netting. But its useless. Coach's right. When I'm in a game, I don't use it at all. Sigh, nvm I shall learn to to use it. This sounds so stupid, this might sound easy to you but I'm still trying. My brain's slow, so? Whoever it is, don't like my slow reaction, just fag off. Don't need/want to hear any of your comments. Lol, ha ha ha. I know i'm trying and trying will do. I don't need to care what others say, lol. I hope I can have half of today's me for every training. :D I had lunch with Jaye and Yongqin todayyy. Jaye uh, need to warm up before you can talk uh, lol. It was a good thing I sat with the sectwos for lunch, sitting at the other table and I'll be an outcast again, I think :/ Had drills with Sermin, then basics multiples with Coach. Ha ha (: Later on we played games, with me partnering Sermin, then Nich Lim. Yay, today's quite okay (: I hope everyday would be somewhat like this. I'll try to cut out the negativityyyy. Will be going to do Cip at Panjang tmr with some people, wheez. There'll be training on Monday ( YAY YAY YAY, BUT PLEASE DON'T MAKE MY ASTHMA COME BACK.) , I hope the sec twos can have lunch again.. And oh, Qin's birthday is coming. (: Oh I just realised one thing. A few days after PT, I'll be on form! O.o :D :D ;D And, GOH ZELI i suppose you are coming back soon. Ha ha, I feel like catching up with alot of peopleee:D |
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